Everything I got left

[Verse 1]
This is everything I got. You can call it ersatz
Let me write this down before I forgot
Wait. That sentence is improper like my awful thoughts
Cause I forget that I was begotten
By a religious woman and her mother the same
 
[Chorus]
Let the trumpets sound
Amen; hallelujah
Cause I look around and notice God left
This place along time ago
But fear not he is in your heart
 
[Verse 2]
What is your sin; how has the devil broken-in?
the preacher asked to offer guidance
I’m a giggle at church during a moment of silence
Just before the announcements and the tithes are collected
He frowned, “the lord is no laughing matter.”
 
[Chorus]
Let the trumpets sound
Amen; hallelujah
Because I look around and noted God is in every breath
This place fell in corruption due to developer error
But fear not he is in your heart
 
[Verse 3]
The Lord told me to go ahead and rock the boat
Get knocked off than gloat as you float
Because no sinner ever knows his inner sin
Without first knowing his joyful innocence
 
[Chorus]
Let the trumpets sound
A bunch of men and women will not be leaving
Hallelujah
Your hamfisted attempts to convert me will be met with a bazooka
Filled with convoluted logic and giggles

I wanted more

 
[Verse 1]
I wanted their friendship
blunted knives in my back
that is how they showed kinship
 
[Chorus]
baby, you have no idea
my scars aren't for show
can’t take enough blow to get me back into the flow
 
[Verse 2]
I wanted love
the haunted boy that is unwanted   
unattraction adhered to me like a fitted glove
 
[Chorus]
baby, you have no idea
my scars aren't for show
can’t take enough blow to get me back into the flow
 
[Verse 3]
I wanted to be close to God
Churchgoers called me a fraud
And beat me with a rod
Which only spoiled the monster in me
 
[Bridge]
The stars are aligned
Baby, I am a diamond in the ruff
But life is tough
 
[Verse 4]
I wanted family
They ran from me
When I told them I was in pain
Nothing but canned responses and toxic remedies.
 
[Chorus]
baby, you have no idea
my scars aren't for show
can’t take enough blow to get me back into the flow
 
[Verse 5]
I wanted to be normal
I acted formal and communal
But they called my bluff which was fatal
Pride torn until I wish I wasn’t born.
 
[outro]
Until I wish I wasn’t born
Too much scorn, baby
But don’t pity me